Hanging on

Oh I would love to say that I have been busy working on submissions, school, business, and such this past week. But I can't. Sickness sucked the life out of me for most of the week. I thought my attitude was getting better as I was trying to accept the "new" me. But after this week, I can't say that I am too happy with me the old or new me. I am not sure what else to do about this stupid disease. Forgive my frustration, but I would like my life back. I am tired of being held hostage by extreme fatigue, reoccurring sinus infections, and now stomach issues. I am sure that by the weekend I will feel better and will be able to move forward, but it is incredibly frustrating to be walking along thinking, "I have this beat!" to only be knocked down once again.

But, I can't complain too much. Last week I spoke with two people that had long term debilitating conditions and the were single. At least I have my family and friends. There are days that I wonder if Chuck really knew how much he was going to be tested by in sickness and in health. I praise him for his faithfulness to me no matter what comes our way. Jan can make me laugh even when I don't want too. :) The kids are a blessing, they cook and clean when I am down. I still stand on the promises of God about health. God is faithful and true. Just sometimes, it is hard to hang on.

Hopefully next week I can go photograph some beautiful flowers, that always helps my attitude and perspective. :)